The Mark of the Goatfish


Prompt: Healing emotional pain

I am not convinced there is a generic way of dealing with emotional pain. Human beings are uniquely individual so all I can give is the healing methods that work for me. Time is not my enemy and I know better than to deny myself the time I need to find my inner balance.

Reflecting on the circumstance is not a bad thing, sure it can highlight the mistakes I made, which hurts, but also teaches me not to make the same mistake twice. Reflecting also recalls the good things which I can learn from too.

Most of all I need to be on my own. I need to be away from the offers of caring hugs and advice. I don’t need it, in fact, that will drive me to the pits of depression I am fighting to avoid. I am not very touchy-feely at the best of times, at the worst of times I am not.

Since starting my transitional therapies I have become more self-reliant, something I wouldn’t have thought possible as I have always been fiercely independent. It gets me accused of pushing those I love away, and perhaps I do but really if they cared that much they would fuck off and leave me alone.

The believers of horoscopes will say it is the mark of the goatfish. Maybe it is, maybe it isn’t. However, it is a characteristic I possess and one I have learned to use to empower and strengthen myself when I need to.

©JG Farmer 2018

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