Prompt: What do you need to feel safe One of the symptoms of my bipolar depressive episodes is panic attacks. These can be logical or totally illogical. Along side the panic attacks I get agoraphobia which leads to reclusiveness and I avoid going out because I just don’t feel safe and then panic.
As a transgender man I spend a lot of time networking within the local community on behalf of the support group I organise.
Prompt: What are your worst traits? Another of those not easy answer to questions and it certainly took more than five minutes to think it through as I was listing almost the same things as I had written down as my best traits. So I am going to go with that thinking.
Free Writing Prompt: What are your best traits?
Free-write Prompt: If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
Prompt: Three things you like about yourself
Prompt: A song you have danced to with your best friend
I am alone in my hospital room with only my thoughts for company. The bright sunshine outside does not bring light to the sheer weight of the darkness I see. Sure, my eyes see a couple of cats playing in the long grass where the gardens meet the car park. They see the road I … Continue reading Sometime in Slough
Prompt: A song you cannot stand to listen too As my taste in music is very eclectic this is actually a very hard one to come up with. There are songs and pieces I hate but I can listen to them or have them on in the background and tune them out, but a … Continue reading Noooooooo!!!!
Prompt: a song someone has sung to you There is only a few I can think of and if the person concerned was anywhere near me right now I would hit him as I hate them and have got to listen to that shyte to make this post. https://youtu.be/v35fWf1CWFQ https://youtu.be/Y4QGPWLY-EM https://youtu.be/fw-QRyQcFH8 And that … Continue reading Blue Cheese
Prompt: Your Favourite Song I challenge anyone to nominate just one song. So, instead, I have decided to go with a few of my faves from different areas of music. As the title suggests I like musicals a bit. No, not Julie Andrews. No. not the Sound of Music. I am torn between Chicago and … Continue reading These Are a Few of my Favourite Songs
Prompt: The last song alphabetically on your playlist On my current playlist that would be Vlad by Inkubus Sukkubus. As this is one of my favourite bands this post is their music, starting, or course, with Vlad from the album Belladonna and Aconite https://youtu.be/vbjnaQzJqfU Next up is Hedonistic Gene from the Beast with Two Backs … Continue reading Grooving with the Vampires
Prompt: The first song alphabetically on your playlist Wenn ich die Klassiker heraushole, wie ich das 1812 vor kurzem gepostet habe, dann ist es 99 Luftballons von Nena. Meine verstorbene Partnerin war Deutsche und ich habe immer noch viel von der Musik, die sie in mein Leben gebracht hat. Ich denke, ich werde diesen Beitrag … Continue reading Der Erste von Vielen
Prompt: Songs you love but rarely listen to There are far too many of these to post a complete listing so will go with the few I have had the pleasure of listening to today as I made notes for this write. I am starting with Transvision Vamp and Baby, I Don’t Care as it … Continue reading Long Time No Hear
Prompt: Songs that make you want to dance No prizes for guessing this write will feature a fair bit of tango, so that is where I will kick off with El Choclo by Angel Villoldo https://youtu.be/aV9wGF8QieI Next up La Tropiilla de la Zurda by Carlos Libedinsky as it is so frikken sensual to dance. https://youtu.be/VgiQthd09V0 … Continue reading Where the Heart Leads the Feet Follow
Prompt: Songs that make you cry This is where the classics come into their own, especially the sound of the violin so no shock there is going to be a bit of Samvel Yervinyan. https://youtu.be/henMgfslBPQ I have been privileged to see Samvel in concert with Yanni and the next piece truly made my eyes leak … Continue reading Leaky-eye Tunes
Prompt: Songs you sing out loud In recent years my voice has gone through a lot of changes as the male hormones have done their job. So I am starting with one I used sing back in the day from the beautiful Debbie Harry and Blondie https://youtu.be/DbDdMqE49SA Another one from the past with Gloria Gaynor … Continue reading Sing It
Prompt: Songs from your school days Music was my big interest as a kid, and my music teacher was an awesome guy who appeared to be a normal teacher but oh, boy, he let us explore music. So just for TP I will start with the song with nickname we gave him because he loved … Continue reading Leave Us Kids Alone
Prompt: The last song you heard Today’s prompt is an easy one as it is still before 9am and I don’t have the radio on. That means the last song I have heard is the one I use for my alarm sound. I chose it because it is loud, it is anthemic and rebellious and … Continue reading Kicking Ass
Prompt: Songs from your favourite movies Good grief, I don’t even know where to start this one. As I am a Trekkie I suppose Star Trek would be a good start but which one – arrrgh!!!! I really can’t choose so have gone with a delicious medley instead https://youtu.be/YJ7zOFn0QYQ Not much of leap as my … Continue reading Music and Movies
Prompt: Songs by your Favourite Band Wow, this could be the world’s longest post, it’s not going to be. My music taste is eclectic and depends on my mood. I am old enough to have many favourites but will stick to one, but who to chose out of the many. I will have to use … Continue reading Bang a Gong
Prompt: Songs that Give You Hope The journey from female to male has not been an easy one, and for me that is a good thing as it has made me question everything about myself. Sometimes I haven’t been comfortable with my answers, but they are my answers and ultimately are part of making me … Continue reading Before the Storm
Prompt: First Love Songs I think I pretty much covered that in a previous post. Instead, I am going to list some love songs that I love. The first song is ‘Will You? by Hazel O’Connor from an iconic movie in my teens, Breaking Glass. I still spill my tea if the love nerves … Continue reading Love Is…
Prompt: Songs for the Summer Just as some people get SADS during the winter I get down about the heat and sunshine. I am a winter baby who loves ice and snow. Choosing songs for the summer is not that easy unless I delve into the classical world. Vivaldi is a bit obvious, but it … Continue reading Ohhhh Olivia ……….
Prompt: Songs that remind you of your best friend Not many words here as there doesn’t need to be. There is only one Crowe, and these are just a few songs that tie us together as soul-brothers. There is only one track to start this off - bring on AC/DC as it just is Crowe … Continue reading From the Raven to the Crowe
Prompt: Songs that stick in your head Most songs that stick in my head are not welcome there. They are the annoying bullshit advertising ditties played on the radio. I am not going to irritate myself by looking them up on Youtube, but undoubtedly some complete twank has put them up there because quite frankly … Continue reading Jeff and Mike
Prompt: Songs that calm you down This is easy as it is always Enigma. I can lay back, chill out and let everything go to their beautiful music. So, a selection of Enigma at random, in no particular order. https://youtu.be/XDPGohgpaLc https://youtu.be/cQ-48rr6Wfo https://youtu.be/x4maoo4A3x4 https://youtu.be/HjK30nhy7CU https://youtu.be/ihZClVGxjf8 ©JG Farmer 2018
Prompt: A song that reminds you of your dad Not sure my dad will be 100% with me on this but does say songs that remind me of my dad so that is how I will go with it. I will start with one I posted earlier as a music post and that is Impossible … Continue reading Father and Son
Prompt: Songs that remind you of ex-loves Well, at 52 years of age it can be said I have a history. Some good times and some not so good, wish I could forget times. I am going to focus on the good as really who wants to look back on the big mistakes. It also … Continue reading Friends and Lovers
Prompt: Songs from childhood This is a tough one really. I am starting with the song that was topping the charts when I was born. A true child of the 60’s it was the Beatles. Given I see life as a ride to be ridden to the max it seems fitting Ticket to Ride is … Continue reading Ticket to Ride
Prompt: I feel happiest in my skin when… I know what I want to write but don’t really know what words I want to use. I am very open in my 5-minute mind- wanderings but this is one of those oh sheesh things – it’s a bit personal like. Then again it isn’t. To be … Continue reading Quiet Times
Prompt: Use 10 words to describe yourself Quietly stubborn, old-fashioned gent born in the wrong time. Well, ten words will make a lousy post so I will expand on that a bit but I will do it backwards because I can. Certainly, I feel I should have been born in the late 18th century so … Continue reading Ten Words
Prompt: What would you do if you loved yourself unconditionally? I guess the number one thing would be to stop judging everything I do in such a negative light. I know my worst critic is myself and that is something I really shouldn’t do. I have battled with the feelings of self-loathing for as long … Continue reading Once in a Quarter
Prompt: What does unconditional love look like? I have spent almost the entire 5 minutes thinking on how to even begin this and have come to the conclusion I have no idea what it looks like, I’m not even sure it looks like anything words can describe. Words can express it but not actually define … Continue reading An Impossible Question
Prompt: Who makes your life possible Well, that is a dumb thing to have as a prompt. It implies life is only doable if someone else validates my existence. Just no! The only person who can do that is me. I really have no idea what to add to this. It is not often a … Continue reading Just No
Prompt: Healing emotional pain I am not convinced there is a generic way of dealing with emotional pain. Human beings are uniquely individual so all I can give is the healing methods that work for me. Time is not my enemy and I know better than to deny myself the time I need to find … Continue reading The Mark of the Goatfish
Prompt: I couldn’t imagine living without… My sarky self is high and would say air. None of us can exist without the air that we breathe. We sure need that oxygen fix every few seconds. The air we breathe to get that oxygen is getting less and less pure as we as a species insist … Continue reading It Started with Sarcasm
Prompt: The words I like to live by… Death before dishonour. The generally accepted meaning is to die before you go against a cause you value. The older I have got the more I am aware of a core set of beliefs, ethics and values that I will not allow to be changed or sacrificed. … Continue reading Whatever It Takes
Prompt: The touch of liquid nitrogen What sort of crazy prompt is that. Just what the fuck can I do with it apart from stare at a blank screen and type I don’t know what to write, I have no idea what to write. This is going to drive me nuts. I am already feeling … Continue reading Liquid Nitrogen
Prompt: What every day thing makes you smile inside and why There is nothing quite as humbling yet deliciously beautiful as the sound of the dawn chorus. Birdsong has the incredible ability to reach deep into the psyche and touch the soul with sheer joy. It makes getting up before the world of humanity is … Continue reading Ancient Mother
Prompt: Describe a moment in your life you will never forget I can’t really remember that much as I was dosed up by anesthetic and morphine. I was sleeping it off after the first operation of my transition. Known to many as ‘top surgery’ I wasn’t surprised that I felt like had been in a … Continue reading Out of Balance
Prompt: If I could talk to my teenage self, the one thing I would say is… It is easy to say I would tell myself to face the fear I had of being a freak for feeling like a boy in a girl’s body, but I know I didn’t have the strength about me at … Continue reading I Wish I Had Known
Prompt: Hardboiled The sun was just beginning to dip below the horizon as the sky takes on the twilight hues of burnt oranges and across the air, the scent of coal embers spiralled out of the chimney pots in wisps of bluish grey. Old Bill has just arrived home from his work. His ageing face … Continue reading Wisps of Bluish-Grey