Shattered Chains

Gaga sings I was born this way but I was not born to be someone’s perfection with my mind infiltrated...

Anonymous

Hidden behind the letters page of a conservative rag withered by decades of hate...

Silent Voice

Too afraid to speak to stand up and say my name instead my voice tapers to silence...

Living with Demons

My mind was haunted. So hideous evil, dark, and cruel the word monster is insufficient...

Gender Repetition

Answering the same old questions and I watch him ticking the same old boxes another shrink scanning my mind...

Just a Something

I did not mourn her passing nor was she buried in the rose garden delicate pink, white, red falling to the ground...

Look at Me

I don’t want to celebrate that day it’s not my birthday it’s not my anniversary...

Empty Faces

Defined by colours pink for a girl blue for a boy...

The Right Choice

Do you think it’s been easy - to face the reality the pain...

Division

‘Speak out’ you say and ‘say how you feel’ but we both know my voice will be silenced...

Non-Existent

I felt alone and broken a shattered soul of the night...

Just a Pretty Dress

I wake up as you call my name but my name remains unknown a secret I don’t want to share, yet

Image in Glass

The mirror reflects and I make that comparison between me and him

To Love Too Much

Looking back it seemed so obvious that my life was hidden in lies not the little white lies that told her

Coming to Life

The mannequin dressed in what they want to see and dances to the music chosen before birth

Journey to a Moon

In ink he drew the map a pathway of blue lines on my skin the pathway to you and me

Free to Feel

Should I be sad when thinking of all those years not knowing who I am...

Divergence

Another sign went unseen a missed chance to say

A Reflective Glance

Form: Free Verse I caught a glance in the shop window my eyes saw her and reeled away in disgust

I Walk Alone

Form: Free Verse Once more Lilith has turned me away my time for death is at her command not mine

Shadows of Light

Form: Free Verse Stepping back from the bright lights of city life releasing the chains of denial

Bloody Dysphoria

Form: Free Verse Those nights I longed for the pain yearned for it desired it

On the Road

Form: Free Verse The choice that isn’t a choice but an unchosen decision to shed the self-imposed shell

Somebody You Used to Know

Dedicated with love to my best friend, the best friend a guy can have Love you, Nella xx Form: Free Verse Sat on those old lockers where we used to chat before we grew up

It

Form: Free Verse One winter’s day they looked at me and said

Your Choice

Form: Free Verse I can’t take the power it is not mine to take yet it is my desire to possess it when you choose to give it

You Could Have Been So Beautiful

Form: Free Verse The questioning eyes as red lips ask ‘are you sure?’

Conversation

Form: Free Verse A simple kiss and words can no longer find my lips

The Empty Bucket

Form: Free Verse I don’t care anymore I don’t care what they say

The Collar

Form: Free Verse Circle of silver what do you mean

Almost Kiss

Form: Free Verse Within her embrace my hands hold her close

Within the Storm

Waking up from the wonder beyond dreams and I step out into the beautiful world the burn of sunshine on my shoulder and like the vagrant cloud crossing the blue sky I seek the gathering of the storm craving the touch of rain on my shoulder to cool the heat on my skin releasing the …

The Waiting

The virtues of patience are wearing thin when the hands of time stand still after years of waiting so long in anticipation and yet now that I know the time is near I feel it is out of reach that patience running so thin it’s almost out with the mockery of time all doubts have …

Atrophy

Within pleasure the essence of pain stirs an awakening the knowing love will hurt too much but I want you so, I endure the pain as it plunders my senses until I want so much and I can’t instead my thoughts drift to a different dimension an out of body transition so, I can fulfil …

Do You Really?

You tell me you understand but do you do you really? Do you know what it’s like to be stared at by eyes wondering ‘is that a boy or a girl?’ That!!! I am not a that I am me a person with feelings feelings that burn when they dehumanize me with that you think …

Rainbow Kisses

I want to savour the moment the moment of divine delicious deviant decadence when I know you are mine I want to caress your curves slowly just taking my time tormenting your senses with promises waiting to come and I can watch you taking the tease torn between pleasure and pain I want to kiss …

A Work in Progress

Looking into his eyes all I saw was the temptation tormenting me with the impossibility his eyes beckoning me to let go to surrender beneath the beautiful skies at the edge of worlds the worlds of men and of women joined closer than lovers yet so far apart and he still held my heart as …

Fishing in Twilight

As the setting sun charged the air the river cast its spell on me scarlet glimpses of reflections rolling past me sat on the grassy bank my eyes focussed on the tip of the carbon rod resting silently on its stand the stillness of time absorbing my mind my thoughts like the water drifting with …

Dominance

That deep part of me I share with you and only you a gift given by choice but not for free for it demands the highest love from you and from me given in honour to be held in trust for it is the soul that lives within me and grows stronger each day nurtured …

Passing Ship

I sought the moment in her eyes while denying the turmoil inside my mind my voice coaxing her forward daring her to reach oblivion all for the precious freedom locked in the glowing aftermath of sex embraced in serenity and carnal destruction yet still my soul felt alone isolated from desire rejected by love with …

Small Steps

It will get better this darkness will fade and the inner light will shine through but it takes so long with hopes dashing rebuilding and dashing again my mind shattered by torment empty reflections tormented thoughts of what will be but when, tell me when yet reflections show change happens wiry whiskers replacing gloss no …

A to the Grey

The kiss like a smile in the breeze so gentle her kiss that is mine so, enticing stealing my breath the simple act of lips touching compounds the complexity of desire the incandescent embrace of love and we are lost in the moment until I whisper ‘leave me alone now’ https://youtu.be/U9cLZsOtCe8 © JG Farmer 2018 …

Ambiguity

I feel her touch in the paradox of passion her love my completeness yet still I am broken desire and fear combine and I close my mind to drown in the molten silver of fantasy and illusion in the wild wilderness where I am free to be escaping the hate the self-loathing that is my …

Calavera

Be happy for me, love, my turn has come to dance with the souls of the dead grieve and weep if you must but please hold a little happiness in your heart as I embrace the eternal rhythm and know I won’t tango until we live again © JG Farmer 2017 Form: Free Verse

Confusion

Discretion and denial hiding self within her flesh losing unanswered wondering within the embraces of passion I wanted it to be enough like a final solution to inner pain of gender confusion - forgive me for burying my truth within words the words of intimate love the linguistic torment and cries of pleasure without resolution …

Apotheosis

Every man has a hero the rock beneath their feet and you are mine my foundation and strength throughout my younger days as my eyes watched, my mind taking notes for the time would come to remember in the uncertainty and chaos each memory my bricks of construction for a new beginning while cocooned in …

Death of Love

Once more ice dances amid the flames its coldness the only retreat from the burning passion that sears desire in confusion heart and mind out of line as fiery heat melt a heart of ice and the passion dies © JG Farmer 2017 Form: Free Verse

Abandonment

My senses are aware of everything. The coolness of the air from the open window, the involuntary shiver on your lip as we kiss and I see that erotic glimmer in your eyes before your lashes close. That glimmer that drives me to the brink of sanity night after night as it pulls my desire …

In the Beginning

Realms of fantasy lay hidden in the depths of imagination while the turbulence of reality buries them deeper the writer must dig them out word by word never in order but a jumbled mass of verbal imaginings tangled by life like wool that met the playful kitten and the mess must be sorted each word …

Wild Surrender

She is the flame that dances on my skin A searing torment igniting my lust As kissing silences, the words within Her desire draws out my instinctive need Acquiesced want given to her in trust Her fiery heat to which I must concede My love she’s taking me beyond my fear In a rush of …